My therapist would be so proud

The thing about dating or chasing after boys with commitment issues is that when it doesn't work out, it’s never my fault. Blaming others is fun.

So I meet a very tall boy who doesn't have any commitment issues at all, or any other apparent issues, for that matter. And what do I do? I freak out. A lot. Then I realize that dating guys who are emotionally impotent is really just a way for me not to deal with my own commitment issues, of which there are many.

I've never been fond of guys who want to work out their shit on my time, so I wouldn't expect someone else to let me do it on theirs. Maybe I'm scared because I'm turning 30. Maybe I'm still scarred from my last relationship. Either way, I had to cut Tall Guy loose. He said he was disappointed, but not terribly surprised since I haven't exactly been accessible in the time we've known each other.

Self-awareness kind of blows, sometimes.