Monday, December 08, 2003

The exact conversation I would have with my therapist if I decided to go back for assistance in dealing with the breakup


Doc: Do you think this is a pattern?

Me: What?

Doc: Falling in love with guys that can't love.

Me: Maybe. Do you think it is?

Doc: It doesn't matter what I think.

Me: What did you just write down?

Doc: Let's take a look at your past relationships. It's important for you to come to these conclusions yourself.

Me: But if you could just tell me what's wrong with me, we could just skip a whole step and I'd be better that much faster, right?

Doc: Let's take a look at your past relationships.

Me: [cringe] No, it is a pattern.

Doc: And why do you think you seek out these types of relationships-

Me: I don't seek them out. I have no way of possibly knowing-

Doc looks down her nose at me.

Me: [eyes rolling] Because deep down, I think I don't deserve love.

Doc: And why is that?

Me: I don't know. What do you think?

Doc: Jessica…

Me: What did you just write down?